Gardenia of Blooming Desire

Chapter 211: Eulogy of the Prince 30

"I know you wouldn't leave me, I just know it."

Somehow, I shivered when Merry said that. Something was not right about her, but I said nothing and followed her inside her room. Merry sat on her bed calmly and she grinned at me, "Now now, you must've been tired, do you want me to prepare something? A bath? Food? Or me?"

Merry said coquettishly, in contrast to what she intended to, my body cringed and shivered. I subconsciously took a few steps back, "Merry, what is your intention?"

"My intention? Um Nothing? I just want to meet my boyfriend, and soon to be a husband!" Merry said happily. She caressed her belly again, "Even our child said so too."

"Merry! I never touched you! What are you talking about?!" I glanced at Merry flat belly, now I was sure that Merry was lying about the baby and sexual abuse.

"Well, the baby is still in heaven! We can always have one if you want to!" as if something crazy had popped on her head, she approached me and started unbuttoning her tunic, "Ah, why don't we just do it today? I'm sure you will be a good father!"

Merry already unbuttoned her tunic and her bra was already exposed, she approached me closer and closer and I took steps back, until my back hit the wall. Merry smiled and whispered, 'Ramuja, I almost gave my virginity to my client in Dionde city, but I decided to save it just for you. Because you are my loved one. Please treat me gently'

"MERRY!" I pushed Merry back. She stumbled and fell to the floor. Her face was aghast and she looked at me with her red eyes, as if she had been hurt deeply. Tears streamed down on her cheeks and she sobbed.

"Ramuja, I why do you need to push me like that? Am I really disgusting to you?" she said while sobbing. She covered her face with her palms.

I gulped and kneeled in front of her, "MMerry, you are not disgusting at all. But what you just did is unacceptable. You are a good girl, please keep your Chastity"

Merry started sobbing even harder, which made me feel really guilty, I patted her back shoulder, and then her back. I hugged her gently, "Merry, you are still my family, I never hate you. But I just don't have romantic interest with you, please understand"

I patted her back gently, then suddenly, I felt a force on my back. Merry clawed my back with her fingers and locked my hip with her legs. She pulled me to the ground, the position was now me on top of her. She took my hand and then put it on her breast, she said gleefully, "Feel it, Ramuja. I am yours, everything about me is yours."

I was too shocked to react, until I finally realized that it had been a while since my palm touched her breast, I removed my hand immediately, only for Merry to chuckle, "Ramuja, you've touched it already, why don't feel it a bit longer?"

"Merry, you are sick!" I tried to stand, but Merry locked my hip tightly. She laughed, "Ramuja, if you dare to leave the door, I will scream as hard as I can, so everyone will be alerted. What do you think they will do when they see the new maid under Milord's personal guard?"

"You!"

I gripped Merry's slender neck, I put my thumb on her throat, with only one push, Merry would die instantly, 'Do it! Do it, Ramuja! Kill Merry, and then Lisa and Jon! Then you will be free from their torment, you will live happily ever after with Milord!'

'As long as Milord doesn't know this, everything should be okay, right?'

I put pressure on Merry's throat, but Merry didn't flinch at all, in fact, her face showed bliss, "Is this how you treat him? Is he happy being abused by you?"

I stopped and then looked at her, "Who?!"

"Hahahaha! Of course, Aster Di Arlingdon, the bitch who shook his ass to you!" Merry laughed maniacally, "Who would've thought, that cold and aloof Grand Duke Aster is actually a bitch who shook his ass to his slave! What a disgrace!"

"WHO TOLD YOU THAT?!" I clasped her mouth tightly, but she bit my finger hard. Then, she laughed again, but this time, tears started falling again.

"It's true, right?" Merry said, her expression was very hurt, "I thought I can trust him, he is just a nave kid. He will not do something bad to you, but he did, and he stole you away from me"

"He didn't steal me away, I never love you in the first place!"

"LIE!" Merry rebuked harshly, "We've been together for two years, and you said you never love me? You are obviously lying!"

Merry sobbed again, but this time, it was not fake tears. She genuinely cried out her grief in front of me, "That's why, if what you want is sex, then I can give it to you. I can give my everything to you, you can do anything to me, just like what you did to Aster please don't leave me, I'm begging you"

Seeing her like this pained my heart, I bit my lower lip so I could steel my heart, "Merry, I'm not the right guy for you. You are much better than hanging your life to me, and I already made my choice. You are still my little sister and always will."  

"I don't want to be your little sister!" Merry cried harder, "IIf that's your choice, then I will ask you to give me a baby, then I will leave. Right here, right now!"

Merry started unbuckling my belt, and I warded her hands, "Merry, stop!"

"Do it with me or I will scream!" Merry threatened me, "I will scream and tell everyone that you sexually abused me! Just like what I said to my family, I can hit myself, so they think you are the one that hit me!"

I gasped. Merry was really reckless. She didn't even think about the consequences. In desperation, I took a small bottle in my pocket and chugged the water into Merry's throat.

Merry drank everything and she looked at me blankly, "WWhat did you just give me?"

"A weakening potion, you will be unable to move for a while," I replied calmly. Soon, Merry's leg loosened around my waist and she laid on the floor weakly, only her mouth and her eyes were looking at me desperately.

"R Ramuja" she tried to move her hand, but she was too weak to do so, "W why do you leave me"

"I never leave you, Merry. I was never by your side since the very beginning," I stared at her pitifully, I carried her to the bed and put her gently. Her eyes still staring at me desperately, "I love you I will save you""

"I know," I said, I took a deep breath. She had to face the reality or she would live in this delusion forever, "But I never love you, and never will."

Merry's body gradually became weaker and weaker, it looked like she was going to faint, she said her last word before falling into deep slumber, "Mommy will be sad"

I sighed deeply. I buttoned her tunic again and covered her body with a blanket. I gazed at her face deeply, 'You are really beautiful and kind hearted, Merry. It's my fault for giving you a false promise. Please forgive me, but I only love one person, and he never forced me, I am the one who is willing to jump into his life.'

I stood up and closed the door. I disappeared from the corridor and met Irion who was waiting for me near the training ground, "You didn't do anything, did you?" Irion asked suspiciously.

I gulped and shook my head, "I'm sorry"

Irion clenched his fist again, but he tried to hold his anger as much as possible, "What would you do then? That girl and her family will be a problem for Milord."

"I will find a way, I will protect Milord from them as much as possible," I know what I said was just a compromise, of course I didn't know how to handle this dilemmatic situation.

"I trust you because you are my brother-in-arms, and because you are Milord's golden circle," Irion said, but he still had that suspicious and hostility in his eyes, "But I will kill you and your little family when Milord ordered me to, or if I find it necessary."

"Yes, I understand."

Irion disappeared from my sight, and I could only sigh. I jumped to Milord's balcony at the top of the tower and then watched him from the balcony. Milord never closed the door curtain, he said he liked to watch over the star.

I dared not open the balcony door, the balcony was separated by a wide glass door, so I could freely gaze at him.

I watched his beautiful face shimmered under the moonlight, he was in tranquility, something that was rare for Milord. He had gone through many traumatizing events, and almost all those traumatizing events were caused by my presence.

I touched the glass, "Milord, I wonder if my presence only brings pain to you"

'I wonder if falling in love with me is worth your pain'