Gardenia of Blooming Desire

Chapter 210: Eulogy of the Prince 29

I was restless for the whole day. Jon held me in his room, forbidding me to leave the room to attend Milord for his daily morning walk. I could easily overpower him and left, but he only said one sentence and I was locked for the whole day until Milord called me again at nine.

"If you dare leave, you will see Merry talking with Milord. She will tell the truth about you sexually abusing her in front of Milord instantly," Jon said maliciously. When he saw my rigid face, he looked very satisfied and he started unpacking his stuff and put it in the drawer.

I was breathing heavily, trying hard to contain my anger, "Do you really trust her? Do you think I am cruel enough to abuse her?"

Jon paused a bit and replied, "You are just an outside that my mother picked up, so you can live with a 'family'. I never liked you anyway, I will trust my sister naturally. She has always been a nave girl, she loves you too much. Of course, you will take advantage of her, ungrateful bastard."

I closed my eyes to contain my anger, seeing the man whom I called brother at some point, actually treated me like this hurt me more. I thought everything would be alright after Merry left, but turned out she never let go of her grudge.

When Milord finally summoned me again at nine to his office, Jon held me longer and then let me leave. I rushed to Milord's office, only to find Irion already attending Milord and him discussing a deal with Esther Yvette.

Milord only gave me a cold side glance and then continued talking with Esther. His cold gaze made me nervous, 'Does he already know everything? Or he is just mad because I didn't attend our daily morning walk?'

After Milord finished his deal with Esther, the woman left and Irion asked about something to Milord. I was so focused with my own nervousness that I only stood like a statue. Irion excused himself, he also gave me a side glance and mouthed the word, 'No.'

Milord finally gave his attention to me, he glanced at me and asked, "You look very wary today, what happened?"

I walked and kneeled in front of him immediately and said, "Pardon me, Milord, about the new maid called Merry"

"How do you know about that weird girl?" Aster raised his brow, "She is suddenly in my private garden and asking for justice because her boyfriend sexually abused her. She said she knows me well, but I only have this uh familiar feeling about her."

"TThat did she mention the name of her boyfriend?" I asked, Milord shook his head lightly;

"Well, even if she does, what can I do? I might be able to hand out the letter to send the man to the city court, the city court will be the one who would give him a fine or punishment. I might've known her at some point in my life, maybe when I was a kid, but I don't think she is memorable enough. Because I really don't know who she is."

Milord's answer relieved me a bit, but the fact that Merry and Wood Family became a thorn in our relationship made me anxious, I gently held his hand and kissed it, "Milord, can I ask you something?"

"Yes."

"Do you trust me?"

Milord laughed and patted my head, "Why are you so weird today? Of course, I do. Isn't it given for? We are in a relationship, Ramuja. Of course, I trust you, I hope you trust me too though"

I lowered my head in shame, 'I I do not trust you, Milord. You are so sweet, I'm afraid it's only an illusion.'

'Maybe this is the best time to tell the truth to Milord. At least, if he knows the truth from myself, he will give me a chance. It will be a nightmare if Merry is the one that tells Milord everything.'

"Milord--" I raised my head and stared at Milord's eyes. But my mouth stopped when I saw Irion hiding in a tree near the balcony. He was holding a knife similar to what Jain usually used back then. He stared at me with hostility. As if, if I tell the truth about my affair, he would immediately execute me.

Again, he mouthed the same word, 'NO.'

I gulped. Something felt off, especially when I saw Milord's eyes constantly showing dots of golden tint here and there, as if he was expecting something good from me, "What is it, Ramuja?" he asked gently.

When Milord's eyes almost turned pure golden, I shook my head immediately, "NNothing Milord, I just want to say that I didn't attend you because I felt ill this morning, I'm sorry."

Aster's eyes turned normal instantly, and he sighed, "It's okay, I was quite worried about your wellbeing too. If training with Irion is too hard, you should take a few days of rest."

"Yes, Milord. Thank you"

"Maybe we should go to the city in the evening? It's autumn already, the air is not hot, we can go and eat something in the city," Aster said, then his cheek had the tint of pink, "It will be um a date."

"Certainly, Milord. I will always accompany you," I said. While I maintained my smile, my mind was in chaos right now.

Milord finally ordered me to leave first, because he needed to finish a document. When I left the office and closed the door, I was greeted with a knife on my throat. The tip of the knife already touched my skin, "You are almost a dead man," Irion said coldly.

I didn't flinch with the knife, I asked him, "Let's talk somewhere else."

Irion and I went inside the tool room and he started asking, "Do you not know the danger of exposing yourself to Milord like that?"

"I I just think that Milord should know it from me, not from Merry or Jon"

"Stupid." Irion said curtly, he directed his punch to my face, but I caught his fist, "If you told Milord about your affair, do you know what would happen?"

"He might be mad at me, but I believe I still have a chance"

"IDIOT!" Irion yelled. He slashed the air around my neck, but I didn't flinch, "Milord has been going through that traumatic memory slip twice! It's already dangerous even on the first try. If he got traumatized again, we don't know what would happen to him!"

"MMemory slip" I instantly remembered about that time when Milord fainted for more than a day. His breathing was stable, but it looked like he was in a lot of pain in his sleep.

'I suddenly remembered about Fleur, my dog when I was a kid. My mother beat that dog to death and after that, I just forgot about Fleur'

Milord said that to me once.

"Golden blood is already unstable since their birth, they have mental defects! You are going to damage Milord's mental health even more, you reckless idiot!" Irion was really angry at me. He directed his punch again at me, but this time, I didn't catch his fist.

I flinched after the strong punch, "I what should I do"

"You are still asking me?! Of course, you must kill that girl and her family immediately! Bury that memory, don't let Milord get his third traumatic event!" Irion was frustrated, his breathing was unstable and his eyes were red, "Crown Prince is targeting him right now, if something happens to Milord and he gets snatched by the Crown Prince because of your stupidity, I will kill you immediately."

My heart sank when I finally realized the severity of the situation. Milord was in his fight against Charles, if something happened to Milord, then Charles would immediately sweep the duchy in one night.

"What now? Do you want me to kill that girl and her family instead? Fine, I will do it," Irion took out the knife again and was going to leave, but I gripped his arm immediately, "Don't," I said.

Irion looked at me as if I was being ridiculous, "Now you want to protect that girl? She is a threat to Milord!"

"I" I never liked Merry romantically, maybe it was my fault back then. Because I accepted the love of a maiden even though I never liked her. But what made me hesitate was Lisa Wood.

She accepted me as her family, she cared for me for two years, raised me as her own son with Jon and Merry. With her, I felt like I have an actual family. We were always short on food, but we were happy to be together.

'It's an illusion after all' Lisa once said that I should protect Merry, because she had her love only for me. My hand trembled, I tightened my grip around Irion's arm, "Don't," I repeated.

"Then kill her yourself!"

"I I will think of a way, please give me time" I let go of his arm and then continued, "I will never harm Milord, please let me clear this myself"

Irion still looked at me with hostility, then he scoffed, "You said you love Milord more than anything? What a pathetic hypocrite."

Irion left me alone in this tool room, inside my dilemma that made me restless.

***

Late at night, I knocked on the door of this new maid. I knocked twice and the sound of the door being unlocked made me nervous.

The door creaked and a beautiful girl with dark hair, oval face and sweet look greeted me with a grin, her grin turned into a smirk and he greeted me with her sweet voice, "My husband is back. I miss you a lot, our baby missed you a lot."

Merry caressed her flat belly, acted as if there was a baby inside her belly, "I know you wouldn't leave me, I just know it."