Chapter 396: : Avoiding
Chapter 396: : Avoiding
Hours have passed after Brother Pascal destroyed the door of my room, and I haven't heard anything from anyone. I would see some maids gasp when they saw my room, but no one dared to ask what happened or do something about it.
I want to be mad at Brother Pascal but being mad wouldn't do me anything, and I know if I ask for help from our Butler or maids, I'm sure they wouldn't dare help me. I'm sure they were already ordered by Brother Pascal not to help me. So, I just busy myself reading some books I have in my room.
I wouldn't bother arguing with Brother Pascal about the door because I'm tired of arguments for today. I'll probably deal with it tomorrow. For now, I just want to take some rest.Nôv(el)B\\jnn
I look at the clock and heave a sigh when I realize it's already nine in the evening, and I still haven't eaten my dinner.
I looked at my doorway and frowned when I realized no one even bothered to ask me that it was dinner time already.
Does Brother Pascal ask them not to bother me to teach me a lesson? So, I would learn that I couldn't act like a spoiled brat kid?
I used to ignore the maids before when they called me a couple of times for meals. In the end, they would just leave a bed table full of food in front of my door. But tonight is different. Aside from no one bothered ask me to eat dinner, they didn't even leave any food for me.
I heave a sigh and slump my body on my bed. Brother Pascal probably lost his temper with my behavior these days. That's why he is doing this.
But I understand him, though. I know what I did, hurt my parents the most, and I know Brother Pascal is just worried about my parents. He just wants me to stop being a disrespectful child to them.
But I also think he overdoes things tonight. He had already taken my door, and now he wanted to take my dinner from me?
I want to complain, but I know I kind of deserve what is happening to me right now. I have been rude and disrespectful to them these past few days. So, I decided to just let it off. I wouldn't die if I didn't eat anything for tonight.
I turn my back to the door and close my eyes. I was planning to just sleep early today, but I was startled when I heard someone speak behind me. I even almost jumped when I heard the voice.
I get up and look at the person who speak just now. I find Mother with teary eyes and Father with a grim expression on his face.
I frown. Mother is crying while Father looks angry. What is happening? Did I do something again? Besides my argument with Brother Pascal, I don't think I have done anything that would make them look like this. So, what is happening?
I was still contemplating things when I felt someone hugs me tight. I look at the person who hugs me and finds Mother crying on my shoulders. "My dear," she said with a shaky voice. It sounds like anytime now, she will cry.
I look at Father, confused about what is happening. As far as I know, I wasn't out the whole day. So, why does Mother acts like I was gone for a few days?
Father just stares at me with a grim expression on his face. A moment after, I heard him take a deep sigh. I just don't know what that sigh means. Is he disappointed with me again?
But why? Did Brother Pascal sell me out? Did he tell them the words I had told him earlier? Is that the reason why Mother is crying?
I was about to ask Mother what was happening, but before I could even do, she broke from our hug and interrupted me. "My dear, I'm sorry if we were not here with you when this happened. Don't worry. We won't let this happen again. I promise you that."
I just remain staring at Mother with visible confusion on my face. "Mother, what is happening? I don't understand what you are saying."
Mother gently caresses my face. "We heard everything from the Butler. Although I admit I was disappointed and hurt with what you are doing this past few days, I still don't think what your Brother Pascal did is right." She then looks at my doorway and shakes her head. "He shouldn't have taken down your door. You are a lady of the Lauretré Family. How can I let you stay in a room without a door? How can I let my daughter stay in this kind of room?"
I just stare at Mother, dumbfounded by what is happening. I thought they were mad at me for what I had said to Brother Pascal, but instead they were mad at Brother Pascal for what he had done to me?
Mother heaves a sigh. "I'm sorry, my dear if we were not here for you when it happened. Don't worry. I have already asked the maids to prepare the guest room. You will be staying there for now while we ask someone to fix the door for you."
I didn't know how to respond to what she said, so I just stared at her with confusion in my eyes. I wasn't prepared for any of this, so I would rather keep my mouth shut instead of making any mistakes.
After all, I should be cold to them now. I need to distance myself from them to keep them safe. That is the only thing I could do for them. To make the Lauretré lineage continues. Mother was about to say something, but Father cut him off. "Don't worry. We will reprimand your Brother for what he did. This is an invasion of your privacy, and I don't tolerate this kind of behavior. This is a one-time incident, and it will never happen again, Csille."
I look at Father and nods at him. I was initially planning to retort and say negative things about what Brother Pascal did, but I changed my mind.
I know I already hurt my parents for what I did these past few days. So, I would lie low for now. I know they are only worried about me.
I look at Mother and Father before I heave a sigh. "Where will I be staying for tonight? I'm exhausted. I want to take a rest now."
Mother looks back at Father, so I stare at him too. He just frowned at us before he took a deep breath. "What your Brother Pascal did is wrong, and we know that. If you are worried that he will do it again, don't worry, we will talk to him later. I'm sure he doesn't mean what he did to
you."
I laugh sarcastically. I don't want to say anything, but I couldn't help but comment on what Father said.
I know that I have said something wrong to Brother but what he did is something against my right. Yet, Father is telling me that he doesn't mean what he did? I highly doubt that.
"Father, he doesn't mean it? He didn't even apologize to me, yet you expect me to believe that? I'm sorry, but I won't buy that excuse." I break from Mother's hold and stand up. "I will just find my way to one of the guest rooms. So, if you'll excuse me."
I didn't wait for their response and walked out of my room, but I stopped when I heard Father say something. "I heard from the Butler that you also said something to your Brother. Don't you think you should take responsibility for that?"
I laughed bitterly, but I didn't say anything. I just walk away from them. I don't want to respond to what Father said because I know if I do, it will just end up in a heated argument.
Also, Responsibility? Does the real Csille even know that? I don't think so. So, why would I do
that?
I need to follow the script, so even if I don't want to say the words I have said to Brother Pascal earlier, I don't have a choice. Also, I think Csille has a reason to be mad at them too. They have been sheltering Csille too much that even I sometimes feel suffocated because of it. I walk towards one of the guest rooms and lay on the bed. I was already exhausted, but my mind kept thinking about the things that happened today. The conversation I had with Mister Sewell, Rufus woke up from being unconscious and my arguments with Brother Pascal.
I couldn't help but think, what if I just let things stray from the novel I have written. So, I can just get away from all the mess.
But if I do that, I will be forever stuck in the Cosmo? Is that the life I want to live?
I heave a sigh and close my eyes. I think I already know the answer to that.
The following day, I woke up earlier than everyone else. I didn't even see anyone awake when
I went down from my room.
I decided to wake up early because I wanted to avoid the confrontation with my parents and Brother Pascal. I'm just tired of all these arguments I keep having with my family. So, I would rather do other things.
I know avoiding confrontation isn't a good thing to do, and it won't solve anything. But for now, I just don't want to deal with any complicated things. I just want to live the way I used to
be.
The guards were even shocked when they saw me walking towards the gate. You need to walk for a minute or two before you can reach the gate. That's the reason why we usually ride the carriage, but because I couldn't wake up our coachman, I decided to just walk my way through
the front gate.
The guards bow their heads when they see me. "Miss, isn't it too early for you to be awake?"
I just smile at them. "I have something to do today. That's why I wake up early. Can you call me a carriage? I couldn't bear to wake up the coachman."
The two guards look at each other before one of them stares at me with hesitation. "Miss, forgive me for asking, but may we know where do you plan to go? Does the Count and the Countess know about this?"
I knew they wouldn't let me out without my parents without their permission. I smile at them reassuringly. "I have a lot of work in the Foundation, that's why I decided to get up early to finish my work. Is that enough reason for me to get out? Or should I wake my parents up so
you can let me out?"
The two guards stare at each other for a couple of minutes before one of them lets me out while the other hires a carriage for me. I smiled at them and left a few centimes to thank them
for letting me out.
I immediately see Lilla sweeping the dirt outside the Foundation when the carriage stops in front of the Foundation.
She rushes toward me when she sees me get off the carriage. "Dame Csille! Dame Csille! You are here! Do you know how much we have missed you?" She then hugs me tightly.
I hug her back. Lilla reminds me of Lena. Although they have two different personalities,
they were the ones who always had my back.
"Lilla, what are you doing here? Isn't it too early for you to sweep outside?"
Lilla broke from our hug and stared at me with teary eyes. "I couldn't sleep much these days
because I was worried about you. You didn't visit us for days. Is everything okay, Dame
Csille?"
Okay? Nothing is okay with my life currently, but I couldn't tell her that, so I have no choice but to lie again.
I smile reassuringly at her and gently caress her head. I am really touched by the concern she
has for me. But too bad she was concerned with someone who would sacrifice everything for
her revenge.
"Everything is okay. Don't worry about it. I was just busy doing some other things. By the way, how is the Foundation? Is everything okay here?"
Lilla clings her arms to mine and smiles widely at me. "Everything is okay, Dame Csille. Did
you come here to work? But aren't you too early?"
I just smile at her and pull her inside the Foundation. For now, I just want to drown myself in
work and forget everything.