Untamed: The Alpha

488 HE IS STILL ME

Zuri wanted to tell Chaos that Eros was his shattered soul, but the word stuck in the tip of her tongue, though she said she was willing to do anything for him, but the mate bond was so strong, this rendered her speechless, as she didn’t want any harm befall upon her mate.

However, before Zuri could say anything, Chaos had cut her off. “I know,” he said, as if answering the unspoken question. He made it easier for Zuri to bring this topic. “Do you think I don’t know? I am not that dense.” Chaos pinched her chin so she could stop biting her lip.

Zuri trembled, even though the water was warm, but she couldn’t help it. She dreaded the future and what Chaos would do.

“What… what will you do?” she didn’t want to be like this, she wanted to be more firm with her answer and her feeling, but what she showed Chaos was the other way around. Would she be able to convince him again that this wouldn’t affect her like what had happened?

Chaos didn’t answer her immediately, but this silence was killing her and she didn’t know what the best thing that she should do at this time. They were so close, there were not a single thread that separated them as their skin touched each other, but her heart grew so distance, because of this guilt.

“What do you want me to do?” Chaos asked her, he looked at her with his dark blue eyes. It seemed this was the time for him to find his other shattered soul and there was the one, so close to them and he could take back his soul as easy as he flicked his finger. “Do you want me to take him?”

Zuri flinched with the idea, she stumbled to find the right word, but no matter what, she knew that the only right answer was to agree to that.

“Yes… you should take him.” Her heart was bleeding with the image her mate would be gone. She cursed loudly in her head. Why would she have this mate bond with Chaos’s shattered soul?

“Are you sure, you want me to take your mate?” Chaos didn’t blink his eyes when Zuri blanched. She was mortified to say the least.

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For Zuri, she thought Chaos only knew Eros was his shattered soul, how could he know that he was her mate as well? How could he guess that? Did that even a random guess?

“I told you, right? I know.” He reiterated his words again.

“But… how?” Her question was barely a whisper and this made Zuri felt pathetic. “How do you know it?”

Zuri couldn’t understand, she couldn’t read him. it was indeed hard to read his emotions, but after years being together, she could see him through his calm demeanor, but right now, she couldn’t see him at all.

He was too calm, there was no emotion in the way he looked at her. How great he was at hiding his emotion and his own thought?

“Chaos… I don’t mean.” Zuri gritted her teeth, she felt the water had run cold, as her body shuddered, but she knew this coldness was coming from within her.

“Don’t be so harsh on yourself. This is not your fault at all.” Chaos brushed away her damp hair from her bare shoulder and then kissed her shoulder gently, he lingered a little bit longer there. “This is expected.”

Expected?

“What do you mean?” Zuri wriggled from him and then cupped his face between her hands, as she looked at him straight in the eyes. She didn’t believe how calm he was when he figured this out. How could he be so calm, knowing that she gave her heart to someone else? Though this was out of her control.

There was no one could control who would be your mate.

“Blue, I love you. I have loved your through so many lifetimes. I love you and my soul knew that. Every single soul, every part of my soul that was shattered love you, Blue.” The words that he said sounded like an oath in her ears. “Every piece of my soul carried different love for you. Every piece of my soul carried different feeling for you and you know that, that’s the reason why you recognize my soul.”

Zuri was stunned when she heard that. She had never thought about this matter in that kind point of view.

Eros was indeed someone else, but in a way, he was part of Chaos too…

This was something that Zuri learned just now and she felt a pang of relief when Chaos didn’t act the way she thought he would.

It was a horrible feeling to keep something from him and to be able to let out this ordeal opened, she wouldn’t feel more glad than this.

Zuri wrapped her arms around his neck, as he hugged her back even tighter, he kissed her shoulder and neck, letting her cry silently.

“I thought you will be angry again,” Zuri sobbed, she dreaded the thought Chaos would give her a cold shoulder again like before. “This is not my fault.”

“This is not your fault.” Chaos confirmed that and then kissed her cheek, he licked her tear, which made her face flushed red. “And no, I will never be angry at you.”

“You were angry at me before.” Zuri wiped her face roughly, because she didn’t want him to see her in this mess.

“I was not angry at you. I was worried about you,” he replied truthfully. “This is not you that I am angry at.” He tucked strand of hair behind her ear and nibbled on her earlobe. “No matter what you do, you will never make me angry. Even if you love someone else.”

Zuri stopped sobbing all of sudden when she heard that words. “What do you mean?” she asked, her eyes grew wider when she heard what he said. She was mortified. “You know that I bound with him because of the mate bond, why you have to phrase it that way?”

Chaos leaned over and kissed her lips, but Zuri pulled away because she wanted to listen what his explanation for that ridiculous statement.

“I have thought about it for a while, I have expected situation like this and has my own assumption, since you were born as a shifter, it was one of the characteristics of a shifter.

Having your mate, the soul mate that would spend the rest of your eternity was a blessing that was given by the moon goddess.

“What do you want to say? Stop being so cryptic and tell me.” Zuri furrowed her brows, she was not in the mood to play with words, especially with him at this time.

“It is a blessing for a shifter to find their mate and be together with them.” Chaos brushes his fingers against her soft lips, while speaking in daydreaming tone. “If you want to be with your mate…”

Zuri didn’t need to listen to the end of that sentence, she swatted away his hand from her face and growled at him. “If you are planning to say nonsense, I will leave.”

Zuri stood up and turned on the shower, so she could wash away all the foam from her body and then grabbed the towel, which she wrapped around her body. She didn’t want to talk about that, she didn’t even want to consider that.

However, before Zuri could walk out of the door, Chaos came to her and then wrapped her in a warm back hug.

This was not fair, because Zuri noticed Chaos had put on a shirt and pants, he did that in less than a second. Damn magic!

“I didn’t mean to upset you.” He rested his chin on her shoulder and slid his hand to rub her stomach.

“You just did. I don’t want to talk about that.” Zuri gritted her teeth, probably this was because or her anger or her impulse to prove that she wouldn’t be affected by his decision, but she was desperate to make Chaos trusted her loyalty to him. “If you want to take your soul from him, do it. I can lose him, but I don’t want to lose you.”

Zuri turned around and then faced Chaos, his face was devoid from any emotions and she felt this urge to shake his body, so he could at least show her something.

“You will be in pain.” That was the only reply that Chaos gave to her after a long silence.

“I am already in pain. I have gone through a lot and there is nothing more painful for me than when I drove the dagger straight to your chest. Everything else is tolerable.” The words flew out of her lips, as if she had planned it, but it was very genuine, because she didn’t want anything else, but him.

“You will be in so much pain.” Chaos warned her. His blue eyes slightly darker.

“I can handle the pain.” Zuri tiptoed, she wrapped her arms around his neck and then made him to bend his body, so she could kiss him. “I only want you, Chaos.”

“In a way, he is still me.”

With that, Zuri stopped and then freed herself from him, she looked at him fiercely. “In a way, you remind me of Knox and I despise him for what he had done to July.”

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