Chapter 161: Emotions - Part【4】
"Why?" I asked upsetly. "You cannot decide anything that concerns me just like that. You are my male at this moment not my Alpha."
"What do you want from me, Theia?" There was a raise to the sound of his voice that pushed me to retreat but I did not, I stood my ground. He tried to stand but I shoved at his chest wheezing with indignation at his meaningless actions to cut me. He meant none of it I was certain I could see it in his eyes.
"No," I growled noisily as I flashed my battle teeth at him loathing how he was speaking to me.
Before I could receive the totality of his lethal wrath Tadeas began to wail shrilly at the top of his lungs his tiny palms were balled into fists and he instantly gathered the entirety of our attention. It was the second time I heard him cry, my little beast had sensed the tension surging with each passing second between his parents and his small being could not tolerate it.
Phobos was quick to arise to carry me and set me down in the opposite seat with his keen eyes anchored on his bawling male. Awan kept his head bowed in reverence, I was confident that the other two wolves overheard our conversation as well but they did their best to remain oblivious in consideration for Phobos and me.
When my moon blessed picked up our male and held him close to his chest my heart warmed and my upsetness with him perished, it was a distinctive feeling indeed watching Phobos that way with my male was so very captivating to witness.
"Hush now, there is no need for you to cry is there?" His voice was pacifying and so very tender, even his eyes showed that adoration he harboured for his newborn male. As soon as Tadeas was in his father's arms he quieted and gazed up at him with wide interested eyes earning a loving smile from my mate. "What do you want? Is your belly not full, little one?"
I smiled. It was an adorable sight and his words made their fresh bond even cuter to look at. "He just wanted to be in your arms, to be close to you," I whispered and Phobos froze to my truth.
"At least there is someone who wishes to be close to me this way." Tears of affliction were fleet to brim to the surface at his words. That was meant to hurt me and it did.
After that, I did not attempt to speak with him and neither did he come out of the back room to seek me out. He kept Tadeas with him for the rest of the journey and never once did my little beast call out to me as he was fairly content being with his father.
They shared a more indescribable connection one that I could never be a part of but still, I was happy for their relationship would strengthen with time and I did not have to worry about them despising each other as many Alphas and their males did.
Phobos's dominance his need to control everything will surely not sit well with Tadeas in the future and as he matures into a juvenile but I knew my mate would never do anything to harm or upset his male. Tadeas would be the most powerful Alpha to walk this earth if he yielded to his father's training.
When we finally landed on our grounds Lumina and Deimos said their farewells in the jet for them entering our pack would have felt invasive as our wolves were not notified earlier of their arrival. I embraced Lumina as though I was parting with my sister and she felt the same as well. "You need not be overly strong. Weakness is not a bad thing, Theia.
But you can choose to use that weakness to find your inner strength. Face your male, make him cave in to you." With those last words of guidance she let me go and as I anxiously strode through our familiar gates with my male cuddled to my chest I pondered over what she said.
All along, I had been trying to look strong to camouflage my weakness and make it look like strength when all he did was make me feel utterly vulnerable and powerless beneath his penetrating gaze. All I could do was submit, I never did fight for him as he fought for my safety when I was a juvenile even when it meant he could not have me.
He always protected me put me first even before his own pack which stomped on the traditions and rules an Alpha must follow. When my bare feet sank into the damp soil of my pack I knew what I needed to do.
I needed to fight, not just for his sake or mine but for ours together.
I had expected the worst, my mind was already prepared to be met with rejection and disgust for what I had done as I had not only abandoned their Alpha but also them. But what welcomed me instead was something I hadn't even imagined for a mere second.
The females cast away whatever they held in their hands, the pups fled their training area in an instant and all headed to me as fast their feet could take them. I shivered when I listened to the piercing wails of the females and the excited squeals of the little ones that encircled me. The males looked relieved and pleased to welcome me home. I was baffled by what I witnessed.
I was dragged into a packed circle of warmth as diverse scents mingled together whilst they all wept for me, bleeding cries and wet kisses I received from each one of them especially the older females. The males did not come near me at all only smiled warmly from a distance with curt nods.
I carefully studied each of their faces searching for something...just a negative emotion but I saw nothing but raw happiness.