Thank You For Being Trash

Chapter 58: What Love (7)

The room, which I expected to be crowded soon, was still silent. Whatever happened, I couldn’t see the scene in front of me for a moment. I woke up to the strong smell of blood. The sound of my heart beating at regular intervals rang in my ears.

Step, step.

The sound of footsteps got closer and closer. As the room was filled with the scent of blood, my heart was beating with a thump.

I grabbed Acacia's collar with my hands trembling.

‘…What have I done?’

Someone's foot stepped on the threshold. I slowly raised my head and looked at the person who had arrived. The cool red gaze reached me.

Tears flowed and I let out a groan through my mouth.

“Huuu…”

“I killed him.”

Acacia's voice echoed behind me. His body temperature, which had given me a strange sense of security, had moved away. Angrily, I grabbed his arm. Acacia looked at my trembling hands, then covered his hand around mine.

Distria's gaze at that scene was strange. He lifted the body.

"It's not neat for what you stabbed."

Distria dropped the body while his gaze fell on the corpse's face.

“Do you know who this is?”

In a moment of shock, I shook my head as tears fell to the floor. Distria walked towards me. He casually stepped on the blood shed by the corpse. Every step he took was marked with bloodstains before he grabbed my chin.

“Arne, he is the son of someone in a position you could never imagine.”

Acacia's right arm that gripped his sword grew stronger. I shook Distria's hand from my chin, covered my lips and turned my head. I faced Acacia's sharp gaze.

My body trembled.

"Already… such a tattered body…”

I couldn't hear Distria's words properly. My heart thumped and thumped. I grabbed Acacia's arm with my other hand and hastily shook my head.

‘…No. No. Please don’t.’

My heart thumped again.

Distria's gaze reached me. He, who had his back turned and was getting further away, turned his head again.

“…If you kill someone like this, I'll be in trouble. Isn’t it, Acacia?”

As soon as he finished speaking, Distria's gaze shifted to Acacia.

"It's me."

At that moment, I jumped up. I came to the distance between Acacia and Distria. My body trembled aimlessly and I coudl feel Acacia's gaze behind me.

Distria looked at me.

“I killed him.”

My hand that was holding Acacia trembled. Then, I let go of his hand, which I was holding tightly so as not to convey the trembling and grabbed Distria's hand.

“I killed him. What should I do now?”

In this situation, a laugh that I don't know why leaked out. His lips curled into a smile as I trembled.

“….”

"Yes? What should I do?"

"You're crazy.”

Distria lightly let go of my hand. He glanced at the corpse with cold eyes and turned his back. Was I crazy? What was I doing in this place where I had found joy? I was out of my mind. As I thought so, I tried to ignore the smell of blood vibrating in the room.

I closed my eyes.

* * *

Ah, since when did this happen? The handmaid carefully wiped the blood spattered here and there. I blankly watched the process. The marks were easily erased and disappeared though the stains on my chest did not seem to fade.

Standing in Distria and Acacia’s way was certainly an impulsive act. There were already many people who I had ruined for my pleasure… I didn't want to add Acacia to the crowd.

I stared blankly at the ceiling.

Since when did it get so twisted? Ever since I came into this story without thinking…?

The handmaids dried my hair with a sincere touch. It wasn't the silk one-piece dress I always wore, but it was a completely different outfit. After finishing the dressing, the handmaids left. I raised my hand and touched the red cloth around my eyes.

Soon, I undid the cloth and glanced around Distria’s room.

As I moved my steps slowly towards the window, the view was good.

When I opened the window, lukewarm air rushed in along with the sound of people laughing. The next moment, the door opened with a rattling sound and Distria grabbed me by the waist with great force.

"You…”

My body fell backwards towards Distria. I could feel his wet upper body behind my back so I turned and looked at him.

He looked bewildered. The sound of his heart beating rang in my ears.

“Did you want to die?”

It was not like that.

The eyes that had been filled with bewilderment sank into anger as he held my hand. It ran from my fingertips to my arms and shoulders, then down to my toes. He let out a deep sigh and locked me tightly in his arms.

That thump again. Was it the sound of my heart beating? Or could it be the sound of his heart beating…?

I rested my chin on Distria's shoulder. When he reached out and put his arm around my shoulder, I stroked his hard shoulders.

"Why? Were you afraid that I would die?”

I reached out and touched Distria's cheek. He turned his head and stared at me with indifferent eyes and grabbed my hand as I touched his cheek.

"No way."

Our lips touched.

His tongue came all over my mouth. He grabbed my head with one hand and squeezed it with the other. The sound of the heart beating echoed from the tightly close body. Distria's lips came down. It left another clear mark on my neck, which was now gradually getting erased.

He traced my shoulder line with his tongue and grabbed both of my arms. I could feel the damp breath on my back. With his lips, he undid the ribbon hanging from my waist. The pressure on my body disappeared, and my clothes fell lightly.

A warm breath ran down my back and down.

"Ha…”

He grabbed my ankle with a gentle hand before biting the tip of my toe and ran his tongue through the gap. Distria’s tongue climbed up my thigh again. He got between my thighs and licked the inside with his lips.

“Ha-ung… Haa. Ang!"

“Kuh… A lot has changed, Arne.”

Distria's tongue licked around my navel. He licked my lower chest again and then came up and bit my n*pple.

Our eyes met.

Disgust and hatred… At that time, all that had disappeared, leaving only obsession and desire. He stretched out his hand and wrapped it around my waist before holding me softly and carrying me to the bed.

I let out a quick breath and looked up at him. He swept my chest as he took off the thin gown. He took my hand and put it in his mouth.

“You are my own.”

The purring, low voice of the beast reached my ears. He gnawed on my ears and made my already soaked bottom even wetter. I let out a hot breath. Whatever he said, I expected pleasure from him.

I shut my eyes.

“You’re mine.”

I opened my eyes to the clear, obsessive voice. He looked at me with a look of excitement. As his p*nis stabbed deeply into me in one go, I shuddered at the size, which seemed to be bigger than the last time we had sex.

“Hah… ah…!”

He grabbed my shoulders with both hands and stabbed me deeply every time he moved. He drove me like a man chasing something. The bed rocked. I made eye contact with him. Red eyes burning with longing reached every corner of my body.

The place where his eyes reached was as hot as if burnt.

“Huuht… ang! Ah—ah."

My head went white from the intense stimulation. My vision flickered—gone and came back—like a broken light bulb, it went off and on again and again.

This was the pleasure I wanted. I was the one who came after pleasure. If I only have what I want, what meaning will my surroundings had? As I remembered them, I closed my eyes. Every time he moved, a vivid pleasure dominated my mind.

When I opened my eyes again, they didn't come to mind anymore.

“Hhng… Huht.”

Distria swallowed my lips. He gasped at the rapturous stimulation and eagerly coveted my lips. I responded to his movement, moving my hips. His touch reached everywhere.

…Yes. This was what I wanted. I didn’t need anything else.

‘I don't need love, loyalty, trust, or faith.’

Don't sway me anymore…

Finally, I came to my senses at the climax that exploded like a firecracker.

Blink.

The light faded, only darkness remains.

* * *

My vision was bright. I was lying in a familiar room and saw the familiar red hair. Closing my eyes, I opened them again. I blinked my eyes with a blank look.

“Are you awake?”

Seeing him again after a long time, he was a little emaciated. While I laid on my back, avoiding his gaze, I heard Lepis' voice.

“…He is dead.”

I seemed to know who it was without even saying it. Lepis got up and sat down on the bed, andI turned my head to face him. Even when he told me that he was dead, I was calmer than I thought. I had already been swept away, and there was nothing left.

What filled me anyway was pleasure, not love.

It was just for a moment that I got lost. It was just for a moment that I got lost in emotions that were more overwhelming than I thought.

The love I felt for a moment was not even a short pleasure. I constantly tested people and put them to the test. At every moment of that choice, I forsook love and chose pleasure. The story was already over.

…He was going to die anyway.

I turned my head again and gazed at the wall.

“…Arne.”

Lepis called my name.

“Arne.”

Again.

“Arne!”

Soon, he grabbed my shoulders with strong force. My gripped shoulder hurt. He was always gentle… Lepis's eyes met mine. My heart throbbed as seeds sprouted as if something was blooming in the wasteland.

“…I was foolish.”

“….”

“I…”

My mouth hit Lepis' lips.

‘Don't worry about me. Your worries, your love, and your apologies were nothing to me.’

I reached out and wrapped my hands around his waist. I chased Lepis, who pulled his body and poked around his mouth, mixed our soft tongues before he pressed his soft flesh with my tongue. I undid the button that was fastened all the way to his neck.

Under his half-unbuttoned shirt, the lines of his muscles ran down his body.

‘…Don't love me anymore. Don't look at me with those lovely eyes.’

Flop.

Lepis, who was laid on his back, looked despair. As he closed his eyes, tears ran from his closed eyes. When he opened his eyes again, there was nothing in his eyes looking at me.

…No love, no guilt, no worries, nothing.

Alas, what a beautiful sight.

I licked away the flowing tears. All I wanted was pleasure. I didn't need anything else. At the same time, the sound of something breaking resounded.

…I don't know what that is.

I don’t know.

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