Book 20: Chapter 9
Book 20: Chapter 9
Sister Ning, Sister Ning, wait! Ill tell the truth. I was just afraid that you wouldnt believe me if I told the truth Just wait!
I stuck my foot into the elevator. Sister Ning, who was inside, wiped her tears as she went bonkers, rapidly pressing the close button. Fortunately, our elevators quality was good enough to not amputate my foot. I stood in front of the elevator because I couldnt go in. I didnt dare to pull my foot out for I was afraid Sister Ning would leave by herself if I let her go.
Sister Ning yelled at me at the top of her lungs as she continued vigorously pressing the button: Get lost!! I dont want to see you!! I dont want to be with you! Please, spare me! Please! Stop pretending to be a good guy, okay? Stop clinging to me! I really cant and really dont want to bear with this heart-wrenching pain! Please! Please!! Zhu Liangzhe, spare me!!
I was worried management would come up at that rate.
You knew long ago, didnt you?! You knew long ago, didnt you?! Just as in the past. You knew I cant leave you! You knew I could only stay by your side forever back then and now and cant even run from you! I have to face you despite the immense pain! What wrong have I done?! What wrong have I done to deserve this treatment?!
Sister Ning violently smashed the buttons one last time. Of course, it was ineffective. She grabbed her hair in a crazed fashion then sat in a corner of the elevator and cried. I pushed the door open and tried to gently pull her up. Alas, she ignored me. She hit me anded push me. I grabbed her hands with a tight hold to ensure she wouldnt run off to the ground floor. She was wearing her sleepwear, after all. Plus, we couldnt let people see us dishevelled and quarrelling. What would they think? A spouses spat?
Sister Ning, Sister Ning, please listen to me, although I know that youre guaranteed to not believe my explanation, which is why I didnt tell you
It took a lot of effort to finally pull Sister to the entrance of the elevator. I spoke in a loud voice but wasnt angry. I just wanted to tell Sister Ning the truth. Admittedly, the truth was incredibly strange, but it was the truth. Furthermore, it was impossible for me to explain the truth. What was I supposed to say? Was I supposed to say, The truth is, Im dead. These are my moms and wives I met after I transmigrated to another world? I went through a bunch of things with them, and were currently living a life thats questionable on all levels?
If I said that, Sister Ning would think that I was lying through my teeth or even mocking her. Nobody would believe something so outlandish. Hence, I pondered, So, what do I say? Whats convincing? Sister Nings feelings can be put aside for the meantime; however, I need to calm her down first and foremost.
What else do you want to say?!! What else do you want to say?! Is hurting me once not enough for you? How else do you plan to hurt me?! Yes, I like you; I always have. Ive always wanted to be with you, which is why Ive always been by your side. I always thought I had a chance. I always believed that, yet you brought back four women with better bodies than me who also like you! What are you trying to suggest?! You want to hurt me over and over again?! Why are you treating me this way?!!
Sister Ning wasnt remotely calm. She punched and kicked me. No, her attacks didnt feel comfortable, soft or whatever else; it hurt. All I could do was do my best to support her on her feet. Her tears flew onto my face. I did my best to hug her because I didnt know what to say or do.
If I didnt die and was still alive, Id say that being able to be together with Sister Ning would be the happiest thing in my life. How could I not like her? Honestly speaking, I was always aware I liked her. How could someone not like her when they were with her? Sadly, I had an inferiority complex in the past. I felt so inferior that I couldnt find the courage to confess my feelings. Id be ecstatic if I got to go out with her on the weekend to see a movie, have a meal and buy her some bubble tea. I never thought she liked me. She treated me as an elder sister would treat her younger brother. Hearing her confession came as a surprise.
I was back, breathing the oxygen there, listening to the cars, recharging my cell phone at home and Sister Ning was crying in my embrace. Everything felt realistic, but I knew I could no longer return to this world. The fact that the four of them were here proved that everything I previously experienced was real. I really was living with Nier, Lucia, Luna, Ling Yue, Freya, my daughters and the White Deer King in that world. What was in front of me couldnt possibly happen. I couldnt return from the river, for I died at the time. Everything before me was an illusion.
In spite of Sister Nings tears feeling cold, my heart feeling wrenched as I listen to her woeful cries and her expression of despair. It was all fake. Still, because I couldnt give Sister Ning happiness even in dreams, I was upset. I made her suffer in even in her dreams. I had no means of giving her bliss. After I died, she mustve been heartbroken. I didnt get to see her tears at the time. I didnt need to see those who liked me in pain, yet I saw it today. Not to mention I was the cause.
Sister Ning Sister NIng Im sorry. If possible, Id definitely confess to you. If Im still around, if I still can I can guarantee that Ill always like you.
Sister Ning ran out of energy from her breakdown. She weakly leaned on my chest, not because she was admitting defeat.
Since it was all fake, if I confessed, I presumed it wouldnt impact the normal timeline. I shouldnt be alive at this point in time. I didnt have Lucias dagger on my back, either. I thought that, if I came up with a reasonable reason, I might just be able to convince Sister Ning to accept my explanation