Chapter 445 - Deep
Cui Xukun had a very odd expression on his face throughout their way back home. First, he had seen Shui Xian and Raelle in the same cinema as him and Cloe. They were watching the same movie and they weren't even that far from each other.
Don't assume that just because of dim lights, he hadn't seen that crying face of Shui Xian. He really felt facepalming when he had seen that. How come his ex-best friend hadn't changed even after all this while? He was still getting emotional over movies? But he couldn't possibly complain about that either. He had known how emotionally active Shui Xian had been since he was a kid.
As if that was not enough, he had run into that couple even in the parking lot. At this point, he had black lines on his forehead.
"Why am I seeing him everywhere?" he couldn't help asking in a low voice.
"Perhaps because your eyes had been looking for him," replied Cloe.
Cui Xukun had wanted to refute her words but he had nothing to say. Perhaps, unknowingly he had been trying to find Shui Xian. Because deep down he really wanted to see how far they had drifted from each other in these years and whether there really was no way left for them to go back to the way they had been.
And the more he saw, the more he had confirmed that Shui Xian and he was not living in two different worlds. And he couldn't even blame Shui Xian for that either. At the end of the day, it was him who had left to hide from his feelings. But while doing so, he seemed to have forgotten that he wasn't just leaving his first love behind, along with that first love was also Shui Xian who was his best friend.
However, he chose to let his feelings get the best of him and disappointed his best friend.
"Why do you look so disturbed?" asked Cloe as he parked the car.
"I guess I have too many things on my mind," replied Cui Xukun. As if thinking about something, he added, "Oh, I'm sorry! I'm really sorry! I shouldn't be distracted in your presence. I'm such an idiot!"
Cloe chuckled at him, "It's alright." As he continued to follow her inside the elevator, she looked at him with a raised brow, "So, you're going over to your sister's place?"
Cui Xukun shook his head, "Not really." He rubbed the nape of his neck sheepishly, "I just wanted to see you off at the door."
"Oh," Cloe nodded her head in understanding.
"It doesn't mean I want to follow you to your place," said Cui Xukun hurriedly as he tried to explain himself. "That's not my intention."
Cloe's brows quirked up and a mischievous glint flashed through her eyes, "I was gonna invite you inside for some tea but since you don't want to..."
"I want!" Cui Xukun interrupted her without even thinking. He instantly regretted it when he noticed the way she looked at him. That teasing gaze was too much for his poor heart. But he didn't go back on his words. Since he had already said it, he decided to stick to his words to the end!
"But didn't you just say that you had no such intention?" asked Cloe innocently?
Cui Xukun looked aggrieved, "That's not what I meant."
"Really? Then what did you mean?"
Cui Xukun opened his mouth to explain but seeing that smile playing at the corner of Cloe's lips he said, "You're teasing me?"
Cloe pressed her lips together and rubbed her nose, "Couldn't help it. It's actually quite fun teasing you." She laughed to herself, "As I told you earlier, you get easily flustered. And I like to see you like that."
Cui Xukun continued to look at her smile and couldn't help smiling himself, "As long as you like it."
"On a serious note, you can share what's bothering you with me," said Cloe. "I might not be of much help. But I can listen. I am actually quite good at listening now."
Cui Xukun felt his heartwarming up when he heard her say that. Although those words weren't much, they held quite some weight in his heart that was beating for her.
"It's nothing much," he told her. "I just think that Xian and I have come too far in our lives now."
"That's for sure," agreed Cloe as she stepped out of the elevator with him following behind her like her tail. "You both aren't in high school anymore. How can you expect you both to be the same carefree boys you both once were?"
"Time really changes fast," commented Cui Xukun ruefully. "And we lose too many precious things and people along the way."
"You can't stop the hand of time from moving," said Cloe. "And you can't expect to hold on to something for life. If it's not meant to be yours, it'll drift away no matter what. All you can do is cherish the feelings of the time spent together."
"You are deep," said Cui Xukun.
"And you're surprised?" asked Cloe. "Don't I look like it?"
Cui Xukun shook his head, "You really don't look like such a deep person. I thought you always wore your emotions on your face dauntlessly."
Cloe snorted, "It's as if you're talking about the time when I was in college. Wait!" She eyed Cui Xukun suspiciously, "Did you know me when I was in college?"
Cui Xukun was caught off guard when he heard that question. His eyes widened slightly as he realized that he seemed to have slipped up a little.
"About that..." Before he could continue, he heard someone pacing around in the corridor.
Cloe lifted her eyes to look at that familiar figure and her brows furrowed up, "What happened to you?" Hearing her question, Cui Xukun also looked up to see that person who stood in front of Cloe's apartment.