Chapter 21
Chapter 21: Do you forgive me my queen?
” My Queen, I am glad that you are feeling all right and I know that you are feeling really happy after seeing me but there is no need for you to greet me with such a deep ceremonial bow.” The Emperor’s voice was nice to listen to but Liu Hui Ying has never been appreciative of men or anything related to them. She did swoon at the sight of the man in front of her nor did she feel her heart tickle instead what she felt was nothing but annoyance– a deep ceremonial bow? Happy to see him? Why does he not simply soar to the high heavens? Can this man even withstand the impact of her, Liu Hui Ying’s bow?
” Here,” a hand with long slender fingers stretched out in front of her, with those veins sticking out of his skin and slightly tanned skin, even the hand of the Emperor looked like it has been carved by the most skilled craftsmen but it was a pity that Liu Hui Ying was no appreciator of this art. She didn’t take the hand in front of her instead she placed her hands on the ground and stood up straight, not even glancing at the Emperor before taking several steps behind. His scent was making her dizzy, so dizzy that she almost fell on her butt.
She hasn’t been allergic to men all her life but after what happened to her sister, Liu Hui Ying developed a subconscious instinct of staying away from men. Her psychiatrist told her that what she was lacking was trust in men as long as she was able to walk past the hurdles that were inside her heart, she would be able to get used to the presence of men but the thing was that Liu Hui Ying never found men whom she could trust. The men she met all wanted to either belittle her and her opinion or they wanted to drag her down such that they will be able to take her position, having grown up in such an atmosphere it would be surprising that she even had the slightest bit of trust in men.
After taking a few steps Liu Hui Ying exhaled and took a fresh breath but the scent of jasmine tea that was lingering on the sleeves of the Emperor’s clothes was so strong that even after walking further away from him, she wasn’t able to get rid of that scent. Her gag reflexes started working and she almost threw up, if not for the stupid ceremony of serving tea to her mother-in-law as soon as the sun woke up and without eating any breakfast, she would have really hurled all over the place. This was why she always chose to work with females instead of men.
” Are you feeling okay?” Jia Li noticed the pale complexion of Liu Hui Ying and couldn’t help but softly ask, she knew just how much Liu Hui Ying hated men but now — she raised her head and looked at the three men standing in front of them. One was of course the General whom they already saw last night what was his name– oh yes, Yu Lingyun. The man in the ceremonial clothing must be the Emperor as for the other one Jia Li hasn’t seen him yet.
” My Queen, are you feeling okay?” The Emperor repeated Jia Li’s question despite not hearing it, his gaze skimmed at Liu Hui Ying’s face and the latter felt goosebumps break all over her skin. The memories of that night fluttered inside Liu Hui Ying’s head and she almost shivered–no, she cannot show any weakness in front of a man. They will surely take advantage of her if they found out that she still held some fear when it came to men, she has already handed the biggest ammunition in the hand of that general, she could not allow any more slip-ups to happen.
” I am fine,” she straightened her back and took a few more steps away from the Emperor. ” Or at least as fine as a woman who was almost poisoned to death can be.”
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Her barbed words have been her defence for a long time and so did her sarcastic tongue. Many men have thrown their hands in front of her after engaging in a battle of wits with her, she did not believe that the Emperor was any better than those men.
However, the latter deserved the position of Emperor, even after listening to her arrogant tone and sarcastic jab, he did not even flinch in the slightest instead he smiled apologetically and said, ” Forgive me as I am nothing but human, my queen. Last night I made a grave mistake by trusting a woman who wasn’t worthy of my trust and made you suffer... but believe me, I did not for one moment wanted something like that to happen, if not for me falsely believing that the woman was carrying my child, I would have never done something as foolish as that, I was subjected to falsehood and blinded by my emotions, that is why I made a mistake such as that ... I sincerely and humbly ask for your forgiveness. Please accept my sincere apology and let bygones be bygones.”
“Yeah right, I can feel your sincerity.” Sincerity to kill me — This woman’s body was poisoned yet this man did not even send a physician to check up on her, it didn’t matter whether her spiritual powers stored in her dantian was able to heal her or not, what actually mattered was that this man was very sincere in killing her.
The Emperor’s lips curled into a smile as he softly asked, ” Does that mean, you forgive me, my queen?”
“Does it matter?” Liu Hui Ying asked back with the same soft smile. ” I don’t think that my forgiveness means anything to the esteemed Emperor, after all, I am nothing but a subject that can be killed at any moment.”
As soon as she said those words a terrible silence fell upon the people standing in front of her courtyard. Good, this was what she wanted as long as this Emperor was disgusted by her, she would be free to look for a way to return to her world.