Chapter 86
Who am I? Stone-headed Eldmia with no sense.
This is uh… ac.
I was so shocked that even though I sat in the living room for a while after that, Ragnis didn’t call me, and I was suddenly fatigued, so I returned to my room and lay down on the bed.
I had to admit it. That I didn’t have a bad eye. Ziknom and his companions were right.
Still, I’m not so stupid that I don’t know what Esmuier took such a sudden action after talking to Ragnis and what he meant by looking around.
At the same time, I couldn’t help but ask myself,
“Did you really not know, or were you running away with the excuse that you were a man who might die at any moment?”
Eldmia, who had to answer the question with her head buried in the pillow, could not answer.
The former is an idiot, the latter a cowardly bastard. Did you try to do well somehow when you come back alive after taking revenge? The fishery management is also of a high standard.
But I’m trying to be miserable because I think I was a coward, not an idiot.
“Sir baaaaa. Truancy wasn’t the problem.”
In the end, with the feeling of kicking the blanket, he grabbed his face and kicked in the air, struggling to avert his eyes from the shame that was pushing up.
okay. I could have imagined that as a child before the village burned down. Because I am a modern earthling who only encountered fantasy through books, and this was the fantasy world itself.
If I can learn magic by reuniting with the wizard who said I would visit again, then I came to this world at best, so I tried to live a stable life while having adventures and meeting women, and then died. did.
It is also true that he became the owner of a slightly distorted mind after it flew away in the form of a demon army attack. It’s like choosing something similar to dying even though you don’t know that you might die every day.
“Ha… It’s not important to worry right now.”
You can’t pick up spilled water, but at least you may be able to put up a cup that is still dripping with water. I don’t know if that will work or not, but I’ll try.
I stepped out of the bed I didn’t want to leave and knocked on the door of Ragnis’s room.
Guts-niisama said that there can be no paradise where you run away and run away.
“Ragnis. Is it okay for a second?”
“…come in.”
But I really want to run away.
Still, when I opened the door and entered, there was Ragnis, who didn’t seem to have moved a single step since talking to Esmue. Even the teacup he was holding had a thin rim, as if he hadn’t taken a single sip.
“I guess the princess said something?”
“Yeah. That’s right.”
“Does that mean you have no intention of pretending not to know?”
Ragnis, whose voice and energy had subsided, stabbed him sharply.
“That… I… noticed a lot…”
“No. Sit down for now.”
As if he had no intention of drinking, he walked over and sat across from her as she put the cup on the table. Since he already knows why I came, it’s hard for me to say anything more.
However, it was difficult to endure the silence, so I barely managed to get rid of luck.
“That… since when…”
“Do I have to say that with my mouth?”
“……sorry.”
As soon as I got lucky, I was defeated. No, I’m not saying that’s going to be a fire. I even said I’m sorry, but I’m nervous that ‘I’m sorry about what?’ will pop out as a link.
“Ever since I was first saved.”
long…! heavy…!
A linkage is better. It’s so heavy that I can’t express my dissatisfaction about giving it a face and talking!
“Why are you so fidgety. Trying to say no?”
“No, that’s it. My heart is really happy, but as you know, I can’t stretch out and sleep comfortably until I kill the demons that killed our village, right? I don’t know when I’ll die…
” going to be?”
Well, that question will come back. Of course it is. You’ve endured for years, but there’s no way you’ll just turn around when you say you don’t know when you’ll die.
It really feels like your mouth is burning tight. It’s not like I’m cheating on you, and I’m not guilty of anything, but I’m so sorry that I can’t stand it.
“I know this sounds like an excuse…”
“You say you’re not sure because you’ve never had romantic feelings for the women around you?”
“I want to at least say my excuse…”
Please…! Please let me speak with my muzzle for my own sake…! Why do you know everything…!
However, Ragnis only relentlessly pushes.
“Then I hadn’t thought about anything until now. So you’re saying that today’s incident made you awake?”
“…Yes.”
“It’s not that I don’t like it.”
“I don’t bother helping or saving people I
don’t like…” Ragnis, who had been sitting still, jumped up and approached me.
Even though it’s definitely skinship that I’ve done often! After realizing it, I feel so ashamed.
“Poop.”
Ragnis, who burst into laughter as soon as he saw me at a loss, quietly hugged me and said,
“You didn’t mind if I clung to you like this until now.”
“After realizing that again, I’d say it’s very embarrassing or I can’t help but react…”
Realizing that a grown-up beautiful girl is making eye contact, it really makes my heart pound. How the hell did you get along like this?
“That’s enough.”
“huh?”
“I’ve done this, but seeing you look at me casually or bitterly is the scariest thing.”
After hearing that, I noticed that there was a trembling in her body. However, even patting him on the back is a difficult task for Eldmia due to her current low spirits.
“The princess said that she would never let go of you.”
“Ah…uh…um.”
I couldn’t bear to say that I even kissed her before leaving. Anyway, how should I treat them now? I’ll turn around. Really
“Do you know why I study magic so hard?”
“Uh…because you have talent…? You were also a disciple of Sir Radnell Vandes before?”
Even though I thought it was an absurd question, I put the reason that came to my mind right away.
“I didn’t say it, but I didn’t like magic very much. I wanted to go out and fight with a sword like my father did.”
I can feel her strength draining from her body, which was as tense as mine. For some reason, I don’t know if I’ve gotten a little more roomy, but I’m still in a bad situation for my heart, but I don’t think I have any intention of falling.
“I worked hard after returning to the capital. Of course, it’s stupid to throw away the talent I have after going through that, but there were other reasons.”
“I don’t think that’s a very pleasant reason…”
“Your revenge. I’ll help.”
As soon as I was about to say something, I had no choice but to keep my mouth shut because her arms around my neck tightened.
“Don’t say anything else. It’s decided. No matter what happens, I will never let you die. If you’re going to die, I’d rather die with you.”
“That’s too scary.”
“That’s what they say. I don’t intend to die either.”
Ragnis, who had finished the hug with all his strength, pulled away and met their gaze.
strange. In that moment, the little boy I was used to with red hair and freckles became a completely different woman. Overwhelmed by that alone, I realized that I couldn’t say anything more about her judgment.
“Do you know what the princess said? She already said it as if she were her husband and left. I’m going to win anyway, but you said it as if you were going to stay sullen.”
“…really?”
“…Actually, it felt a bit like encouragement. I don’t know why I gave such strange encouragement.”
Ragnis, who told the truth right away, finally broke away from me.
“I’m annoyed, but it’s true. I have to accept it.”
“…Do you know what that meant?”
“No. No. Now go and get some sleep. I’m tired today too, so I want to go to bed early.”
Ragnis grabbed my hand and threw me out of the room. Of course, his touch was so gentle that it doesn’t fit the expression that he was kicked out, but I had to leave the room anyway.
“Don’t think about being separated from me tomorrow. I have no intention of letting go even if I wear the princess.”
“Uh…uh.”
“Then good night.”
As if emphasizing that I wasn’t angry in the slightest, I smiled and quietly left the closed door behind me.
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Morning came with a desperate prayer that I would rather never come.
Yes. I wouldn’t be able to sleep properly. The mind was defeated, the body was defeated, and the prayers were not fulfilled.
“Why are your eyes watery?”
“I didn’t sleep…”
Unlike me, Ragnis seemed relieved rather than normal. But since he made a confession, did he reveal his intentions? Well, it’s better than biting your nails or putting on a look of shame.
“I won’t look at you like that.”
“That’s right…”
Eventually, after having a decent breakfast, he climbed into the carriage and tried to sit across from him, but Ragnis patted the seat next to him as if it were natural.
“Where are you going? Sit over here.”
“Eh…”
I wanted to say something, but I was pressured by the atmosphere of Ragnis, who kept knocking on the seat without saying anything. As I moved, her hands pulled my head down and laid it on her thighs.
“I like that you don’t resist. You mean you don’t hate it?”
“No, I said it yesterday, but would you have saved it if
you didn’t like it…” “Be quiet and go to sleep for a while. I’ll wake you up when I arrive.”
After saying that, Ragnis told the coachman to go slowly, drew the curtains on the window, and started stroking my hair.
If you go slowly, it will take about 20 minutes. Of course, if you fall asleep, it’s time to sleep at least, but that happened yesterday, so is it possible to fall asleep comfortably in this state?
Surprisingly, it was possible. I fell asleep in less than a minute.